I’m on a Diet. Yes, a diet.

Hey All, I have started a diet.  I’m going to call it a diet because that is exactly what it is. According to Merriam-Webster.com, the definition of diet is as follows: a regimen of eating and drinking sparingly so as to reduce one’s weight. That is what I am doing. I am eating and drinking sparingly so that I can reduce my weight. I’m not making a lifestyle change. I suspect that once I’ve lost all the weight that I want to lose, I won’t be following this particular plan anymore. Weight loss program is just a word shade for people … Continue reading I’m on a Diet. Yes, a diet.

Trying it a New Way

Sorry for the long absence faithful readers, but I spent the fall semester teaching four courses and the last three months trying to recover from it. I’m done teaching but, that is not what this post is about. I’m relaunching my efforts to lose weight and get healthy, but I’m trying to learn from my past mistakes.  Usually when I attempted to lose weight in the past I would vow to eat healthy and then work out five days a week.  I would manage to eat right and exercise for about a month.  Then I would “cheat” or miss a … Continue reading Trying it a New Way

Top Ten Reasons I Hate Being Fat #8: I Can’t Travel While I’m This Fat

I want to travel.  I have always dreamed of going to Paris.  I’m not sure why.  I have always wanted to travel period.  I want to travel to Europe.  I’ve always wanted to go to England, Spain and France.  I’m not sure why.  I know I want to do tourist type things like see the Eiffel Tower and Buckingham Palace.  When I was younger I thought of all the adventures that I would have in Paris or London.   Usually my adventure would include some sort of paranormal activity.  Sometimes they would involve saving the world like the Xmen, but … Continue reading Top Ten Reasons I Hate Being Fat #8: I Can’t Travel While I’m This Fat

The Top Ten Reasons I Hate Being Fat: #10 I Hate Thinking About My Appearance All the Time

I was watching the movie Jawbreaker last night.  What struck me most about this movie were the bodies of the high school girls.  Rose McGowan, Julie Benz and Rebecca Gayheart were voluptuous: curvy backsides, muscular legs, flat stomachs and ample breasts.  They looked great.  When I was in high school, I would have been embarrassed to look like that. If I’m being honest I would say that I have been uncomfortable with my body since puberty.  I developed early.  By the time I was in sixth grade I already had prominent breasts.  I’ve always been bigger than the other girls … Continue reading The Top Ten Reasons I Hate Being Fat: #10 I Hate Thinking About My Appearance All the Time

My Scale Works Again!

On a whim,  I decided to try my scale this morning.  A few months ago, my scale seemed broken.  It kept giving me a ridiculously low reading.  As much as I wanted to believe that I had lost a 150 pounds in one week, I knew that the scale was broken.  I tried changing batteries and it didn’t help. I gave up the scale for lost.  I contemplated throwing it in the trash but it is hard for me to throw away electronics.  They just seem so bulky and out of place in a garbage bag.  I couldn’t afford to … Continue reading My Scale Works Again!

My Many Reasons Not To Diet This Week

Ok, so this past week was the beginning of 2012, in case you didn’t know.  So like the rest of the world I came up with some resolutions.  My weight loss resolutions are as follows: I will workout 5 days a week. I will rejoin Weight Watchers. I will use a food journal. I will make my dreams come true. I’m working on #1. I’ve set up personal training appointments. I’ve gone back to Aqua fit. #2-4 need work.  I’m having issues with healthy eating. I actually have a list of reasons why I’m not eating healthy. I’ve adapted this … Continue reading My Many Reasons Not To Diet This Week

Waiting

Do you ever feel as if you are waiting for your life to begin? Do you ever think that when I lose the weight then everything will fall into place? These thoughts are double edged for me. On one hand they give me hope that my life will get better. On the other hand (especially since I just turned 36) I can’t help but think that I’ve wasted so much of my life waiting; waiting to lose weight and waiting for my life to begin. Before this latest bout with depression (which started summer 2010) I felt good about where … Continue reading Waiting