Today I had some errands to run and since my Karenmobile is still in need of repair, I had to walk and bus it. Usually, I am very self conscious and very loathe to be fat in public, but since I’ve made a conscious effort to stop hating my body just because it is fat, my life has been radically different. Not only did I go out today and be fat in public and on public transportation, but I went sleeveless.
I have spent many years hating my arms. They are really fat so I had declared that they were hideous and that I must protect the public from them and me from being reviled on their behalf. I wouldn’t even wear tank tops in my own house when I was alone that was how much I hated my arms. Yet today I went out in public in a sleeveless top.
I realized before I had gone half a block that I wasn’t wearing the right outfit for a day out. I had taken great care with my hair and makeup, but I guess I had hurried through my clothing selection. My black pants had a huge scorch mark on the leg and tons of white cat hairs all over. Also my top kept inching upwards to reveal my midriff. I walked a long block to the bus stop, pulling it down self consciously. Of course, I thought that everyone who came across me must have been marveling at how fat I am. I went to the Rite Aid, the supermarket, and finally the Payless. Payless has a great full length mirror so I decided to take some selfies, I was taken aback by what I saw.
My first impression upon looking in the mirror was that I am absolutely stunning. I also realized that I’m not as enormous as I thought I was. I also noticed that my outfit was perfectly cute. I have spent a large part of my life hating my body for being fat. What a waste of time and energy. I may be fat, but I’m not ugly. My body may be large, but it is not grotesque or unnatural. I’m not an alien life form, just a fat girl. Whether I’m fat or thin, the sun still shines down on me, warming me and brightening my life. I can still enjoy the summer and the world.
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