Swimming Pools

On a bright, hot, day many years ago, my friend, Marie, her cousins, Jonas and Juna, our friend, Tonya, my baby sister, Trisha and I went to a friend of my mom’s condo. The condo was in a remodeled school and had a pool.  The pool was the reason for our visit.  I was an insecure and chubby 16 year old.  There was no way that I was going to the public pool across from the post office. There was no way that I was going to get in a bathing suit in public. What if someone made fun of … Continue reading Swimming Pools

What do I Want?

My littlest niece, NeeNee, said to me the other day, “KaKa, I wish you were skinny.” I asked her why she said that and she said, “Because you’re thick.” That’s my sensitive sister’s influence. Her child would never say the word “fat.” No, she is being taught polite, sensitive, pseudo, positive  words like “thick.” Hey, sister dear, why don’t you teach your children that there is nothing wrong with “thick” bodies? Why don’t teach your children not to comment on other people’s bodies? Why don’t you teach your children that women are more than their bodies? That would be a … Continue reading What do I Want?

I Cannot Take Heartburn!!

I’m  so tired of Acid Reflux. Today I had a panic attack. I thought that I couldn’t breathe because I had gas and it was making me feel like puking. I hate to vomit. It terrifies me. I ate horribly on Sunday. It was nothing but chocolate and fried food. I had diarrhea and I still continued to eat poorly. To top it off this morning, I had a Reese Xmas tree and lots of chocolate covered cashews. That was a bad idea. I’m done eating like shit. I have been diagnosed with Acid Reflux twice in my life and … Continue reading I Cannot Take Heartburn!!

I’m on a Diet. Yes, a diet.

Hey All, I have started a diet.  I’m going to call it a diet because that is exactly what it is. According to Merriam-Webster.com, the definition of diet is as follows: a regimen of eating and drinking sparingly so as to reduce one’s weight. That is what I am doing. I am eating and drinking sparingly so that I can reduce my weight. I’m not making a lifestyle change. I suspect that once I’ve lost all the weight that I want to lose, I won’t be following this particular plan anymore. Weight loss program is just a word shade for people … Continue reading I’m on a Diet. Yes, a diet.

My Mother Strikes Again

Hey All, So after my rant about my mother the other day, I was hoping that I would be spared her bullshit for awhile.  I don’t know why I was foolish enough to believe that. This morning, my mother came downstairs to finish reorganizing HER basement. We were talking because she had tasked me with finding her cheap health insurance. I went through the government’s website and I couldn’t find a plan with a monthly premium that was cheap enough for her and sadly she doesn’t qualify for medicare. After my mother informed me several times that she couldn’t afford … Continue reading My Mother Strikes Again